I had to write a song for music class and did every single thing you're seeing and hearing myself, which is probably why it's so shitty. Lyrics: Do you ever have those nights You spend pondering in bed Used to watch the stars shining bright Now there's only darkness in your head Thoughts you don't want to keep Will you ever fall asleep Used to live in all your dreams Now all you wanna do is scream but I I want you to know that I'm fine That I've left my struggles behind Now, everything I say is a lie But you'll find that out in time I want you to know that I'm fine That I've left my struggles behind Now, everything I say is a lie But you'll find that out in time I'm dying inside I need to escape my mind Do you ever have those nights You spend pondering in bed Everybody thinks that you're alright But you are your own biggest threat All you know is loneliness Yet you've never been alone You won't believe that you'll be missed When you are nothing more than bone still I I want you to know that I'm fine That I've left my struggles behind Now, everything I say is a lie But you'll find that out in time in time, in time The devil's not invited Yet I see him everyday I've got something he desires He owns a part of my brain All my demons are united And there is one thing I can say Hell's not burning with fire It is pouring with rain I want you to know that I'm fine That I've left my struggles behind Now, everything I say is a lie But you'll find that out in time I want you to know that I'm fine That I've left my struggles behind Now, everything I say is a lie But you'll find that out in time I've given up the fight And that's alright Do you ever have those nights You spend pondering in bed Your body flooding with fright And you wish you were...
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THAT PIECE OF HAIR WHAT THE HECK GO AWAY Yes I was very very tired and stressed when filming, irony - The words I was saying: This morning I woke up. Well, I kinda did I just felt completely drained, exhausted and shit I hadn’t slept much, because every night I spent my time doing homework till 5am despite my various calls for help, my cries that I couldn’t take it anymore But everyone thought it was just a normal thing and that I just had to do my best some more My best? I was doing more than that I crossed my own boundaries and got myself to break down just because I wouldn’t be able to finish a project instead Because a number on a piece of paper, mattered more to me than my mental health I had to write, I had to study. No, it didn’t matter how I felt Because school isn’t about knowledge or about getting ready for the future You just study for a grade and forget everything the day after Schools have a fucked up system that values hard work over wisdom You do your homework, you try your best and nobody could care less But that one time you forget your book or that one time you fail a test you better get yourself a bulletproof vest We are all different people, yet get the same education The thing here I’m asking for is some variation They say they care about you and that it’s okay if you have a problem but that is only as long as you don’t cause them any trouble You still have to do that presentation, you still have to talk in front of the class It doesn’t matter if it makes you terrified, the only thing that matters is that you’ll pass When you’re too busy you get told do what you can You appreciate their help and let it sink in But the moment your mental well-being affects their subject they come to you with the question of what were you thinking, have some respect As a consequence they only hand you more work and when you beg for less they look down on you with a smirk saying you got yourself into this, it’s not my fault and with a face full of disgust you feel your heart get cold You say you don’t care anymore, you’re done with all the stress Still you spend your time studying and you know you’re a mess You forget to relax day after day There you go again on your way to school in the rain Too early in the morning, you’re barely awake With another long day ahead of you, you just need a break School isn’t the only thing happening, yet it feels like it is and it’s pretty saddening You wake up and think school, you’re in class and think school, you get home and think school, you’re eating and think school you’re on the toilet and think school, you’re falling asleep and think school You think school, school, school And we all think this is normal, are we such big fools? Shortening our lives with our sleep deprivation Stressing so much we lose all our motivation Truth is we can hardly make it through the day and we accept it as our lives and do as they say Pushing ourselves too hard till we just crash down and the grown-ups will just look at us and frown Saying take care of yourself and no wait do your homework later you’ll miss being in school and you’ll realise it was a perk They don’t get what it’s like for a student in this generation They pretend to listen and care, but don’t understand our frustration and I’m done Done with almost falling asleep in class Done with spending my time worrying if I will pass Done with feeling judged all the time Done with hearing my best is not enough and I’m Done with feeling anxious and stupid and helpless Done with everything and I must confess That I think of days as another one survived And I just accepted it as my life
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